The Unknown

 Life can be really crazy at times, the older I get I never feel like there is an end to the craziness, as soon as I feel like I can handle something another thing comes up. Sometimes I feel like I can't handle it, which makes me wonder how others handle life. Anyways I've been learning more about my own dating habits, sometimes I found myself just wanting companionship, which usually turns into something unhealthy, but it feels so natural at first. After going through several of these kind of relationships, I find myself thinking that maybe there is something else out there for me. But what? How can I find it? After some more thought, I came to the conclusion that I need to do things that are supernatural. I need to be the one against the crowd. I strongly believe that God wants us to save ourselves for marriage, this is a good example of being supernatural. Because if we all did what was natural we would be having sex at a very young age, there wouldn't be any standards. Ultimately I now feel like 'doing what's natural' is not something I want to bring into a relationship, Because being a little more supernatural will go a long way in a relationship.

Sometimes I think about what it will be like to get married, have those special/intimate moments with my wife, and have kids. To be honest, I am more comfortable with being intimate with someone and opening up to them, then I am with figuring out how I can be physically intimate with someone. But I do feel like God gives us the need to have sex/intimacy. Unfortunately some turn to other sources for this need, like social sex (ie..One night stands, Hookers, Friends with benefits) but I see these kind of people move from partner to partner like there looking for something, and I think that something is intimacy. Some might look for this need in pornography but still not find it there either, but they will keep looking for intimacy in these wrong sources because you can never get enough of something you don't need, it will never satisfy that need. 

I feel like there is lots of problems that can come up with being physically intimate. For example, you could of grown up in different cultures that treat sex differently or as kids you learned about sex in a different way. This could be a problem because there might be expectations that one should perform in a certain way that could make them feel uncomfortable. Unfortunately some parents feel uncomfortable with teaching their children about sex and choose to make it more secret reither then sacred. This can be bad especially with how boys deal with their anatomy earlier because it's a little more....accessible, and can lead to teen sex or finding answers from bad sources like pornography. I think the most important thing to teach if nothing else, would be that sex is sacred and it's not a casual activity like hiking or volleyball, it's something you build towards, not rush into.

A wise man once told me that I should try and treat my wedding night like a present from a rich ant, the best way to approach sex is very delicately and only open more when you are sure everyone is comfortable, and never forget that it's a gift.

I think it's all really scary mostly because it's the unknown, but I know that if I rely on the spirit, he will lead me through the scary time of marriage.